Week 6, Aug 2025 I have often feared change. It is uncomfortable for me to accept that parts of my life, as I like them, will no longer be the same, even if it is for the better. I spend great effort trying to keep them as they are. I am not yet sure if this comes at an expense (others’ or mine). “Things change, but sometimes things change into a better version of themselves.” My roommate said this to me eight years ago. I have not been living with the same person for eight years. I have just known him for as long as I can remember. I have carried this thought ever since with me, and he, to me, feels like the perfect example of this. Enough glazing. Though I have always carried this thought, and I can recall saying this to others, I have not allowed it to happen to me and things around me. In retrospect, I believe this desire to hold on and the dread of unfamiliarity has, more often then not, made things worse even though I like to disagree with it. Maybe I am too ignorant of the fact great things can and do lie beyond what we (yes you as well) think is possible. I think a lot of people can relate to this, my roommate wants me to find a job as quickly as possible because he does not want to live with someone new, even though I am a massive pain in the ass. But if somehow you are not one of us, I feel envy. The almighty clearly has favourites. ...
Week 5, Aug 2025 To: Paying Customers Sub: Apology Hello Paying Customers, I hope you all are doing well. I am sorry about the last week. I have found myself making bad decisions again because of which I could not write anything. I know this has made some of you very upset and you want to understand what happened. I believe this is a completely valid expectation so I am very carefully going to state why I cannot tell you what happened: ...
Week 4, August 2025 Hello friends, I hope you are doing good. It has been pouring heavily in Bangalore for the last few days and today is no different, makes for a great Sunday. I sometimes wish I enjoyed the rain now as much as I did as a kid. I miss making paper boats and watching them sail down the streams outside my house but lately, the rain feels like an inconvenience. My shoes that I forget to bring in get drenched, I cannot go out to do anything and the traffic in Bangalore becomes so aggravating that I start questioning my life choices that brought me here. Most of all, there are no fun treats that my mother used to make when it rained. Why am I talking about the rain? I don’t know, I just miss enjoying it. ...
Week 3, August 2025 Hello friends, I hope you all are doing great. Autumn is almost here and with it the realisation that there are only 4 months left in the year and too many things in my ToDo list that I don’t even know when or how to start working on. Since each year seems to go by faster than the previous one and the coming year starts with the guilt of not having completed any goals from the last year, I am thinking of at least starting some of the things I wanted to do this year, even if 4 months are not enough to finish them. Two of the most important things I wanted to do this year was start learning the bass and find a new job because the current one sucks ass and so far I have made zero progress in either of them. This thought is also a result of recent events at work, having witnessed the epitome of being biased and a complete turncoat. It’s only reasonable that I look at my laundry list and do something that assures some peace of mind. ...
Week 2, July 2025. Video Games and drinking coffee I used to play games like Tomb Raider and Uncharted when I was small. I have sunk countless hours exploring these beautifully and painstakingly crafted worlds with 2 polygons. Lara Croft looked like someone slapped together some cardboard and duct tape and made it walk, but that didn’t really matter. The developers and designers put so much love into their games that just exploring the different parts of the world was completely gratifying. Looking back, it’s really amazing how much they could squeeze out from the limited computation of that time. ...
Week 1. July 2025 Hello my n-words (nice people). I seriously believe that only 5 people read this, but if you are one of them, thanks a lot. You are the real G. Ever since I started this blog (last week), I spend too much effort thinking about what to dump here and what not to dump here, and it mostly boils down to two things: Things I find funny and people won’t Things I think people will find funny and I don’t So I have decided that I’ll just write here things/thoughts that I find interesting regardless of their humour index on my scale. ...
Week 0, July 2025 So I finally went to a weekend getaway/destination thingy after spending two years in Banglore, I know, how dull, but more on that later. The major highlight of the week is this blog, the one you are reading right now (hopefully). I started this because the lack of my mental investment in social media has led to people actually forgetting that I exist. More importantly I am only on one of them, Instagram, and when I download it once every 1-2 weeks, I realize there are texts that I have not replied to in a long time -ve karma points moment. Usually it’s just the same two people but sometimes there is a text from a friend who actually wants to catch up. So I bought a domain where I could make a contact form for people to drop me an email (an email? eww what?) which has now turned into a blog. Yes this thing started because I wanted an alternate contact page. ...